Saturday, November 15, 2008


Join The Impact rally - Seattle

Great rally and march and beats any Pride parade for the last 15 years, when the parades I attended stopped being marches and simply became celebrations. I saw estimates of 3000-5000 people but a little later on the news, they said that the Seattle Police estimated a crowd of 6000. It was a massive group. I was more involved in participating and less interested in photographing but here are a few shots I took...


Beginning to gather at Volunteer Park. After a very wet week, we were blessed with a sunny and warm autumn day.






Walking down Prospect to Broadway







People patiently waiting before moving again~





Two lone anti-gay jesus signs in the midst of a portion of our crowd down at Westlake Center



For more photos from around the country, check out The Stranger's Slog.
Join The Impact~

All it takes is one person. In this case it's Seattle activist, Amy Balliett, founder of Join The Impact.

You can read the article on Amy here.

Earlier this week, there were only two locations in WA State holding marches today. When I checked the website this morning, in addition to Seattle and Spokane, Olympia, Vancouver, Tacoma, Anacortes, Aberdeen and Bellingham are holding rallies and marches. It's growing.

In addition, from their homepage, you can read about future actions, such as January 10, 2009.

I was reading the mission statement for Join the Impact, found in their About Us link.

Their statement:

In an effort to make a positive impact in the lives of our community, our allies, and even our opposition, JoinTheImpact.com emerged. Our movement seeks to encourage the LGBTQ community not to look towards the past and place blame, but instead to look forward toward what needs to be done now to achieve one goal: Full equality for ALL. We stand for reaching out across all communities. We do not stand for bigotry, for scapegoating, or using anger as our driving force. Our mission is to encourage our community to engage our opposition in a conversation about full equality and to do this with respect, dignity, and an attitude of outreach and education. JoinTheImpact, as an entity, will not encourage divisiveness, violence, or disrespect of others and we do not approve of this. We do not stand for pointing the finger at one group and placing blame. The LGBTQ community comes in all different colors, creeds, religious beliefs, and political parties. If we allow ourselves to place blame on one community or another, then we are no better than those who oppose us. We will not pit one community against another. At JoinTheImpact, we are all inclusive. As such, we will continue to encourage debate from all sides of the conversation provided it is civil and respectful. We will encourage our community to not let anger steer the conversation, but with an understanding that anger is a human reaction and we hope that it can be used as a catalyst toward positive change. Finally, we stand for national unity in the face of opposing forces that have steered the conversation into a state by state issue. We will celebrate our state by state wins, but work as one large entity to help gain these wins and will unite in the conversation against us to plant the seed of change and community.


The beauty in this, for me, is how we can hold ourselves as leaders and examples of how we want the world to be.

In my entry on Monday, I wrote that I would be attending the march today. If you are so moved, I hope you will join us as well.

Friday, November 14, 2008


The viaduct - a couple sketches from my studio windows.

It needs to be torn down and officials are going round and round with what to put in its place. It's right next to our arts building and a couple months ago while speaking with our landlord he mentioned that when they finally begin construction, our building will need to be vacated. He then added that nothing was going to start before 2012. It offers some breathing room but I don't know what will happen to the building afterward.

It wasn't until I began doing sketches as a more formal exercise that I came to a few realizations:

~The type of paper and pen is critical. I need a little drag. Neither the pens or paper can be smooth. I haven't found the perfect combination yet.

~There is so much visual excitement that it's really tough to edit out detail. I become distracted and find it easier with the camera because using the lens to zoom offers auto-editing.

It's quite a challenge.

Today, in between painting, I worked a bunch of small drawings . Here are two of them. The first is pretty clumsy, and the second, headed more toward a "less is more", which is where I'd like to be. How can I say much with fewer marks...like the new paintings?







I couldn't make it to the studio last night. This cold/whatever was making itself known. It took all I had to remain at work and finish the pile of numbers and pledges and reports. I think it's a sinus infection but it's not full blown for a week or two. Instead, it fluctuates between a bad day and then a not so bad day. Yeah, it's annoying.

While curled up in a blanket last night I didn't want to let the drawing slip. It was about 7 pm and I longed for sleep but if I go too early I'l be up at 2 am. So I opted for a quick little drawing of my bedroom.

I live in a small pseudo-1 bedroom apt. My home isn't more than 400 square feet and it has a separate bedroom, with a very large pocket door separating it from the living room/kitchen. I've been here 3 1/2 years. It's the first apt in Seattle that has character and feels homey. Being on the Hill, and 4 blocks from Volunteer Park doesn't hurt. I love my neighborhood because it feels like a small town.

Thursday, November 13, 2008





Yesterday, in addition to a very busy work day, I was still dealing with the remnants of a sinus infection which I haven't been writing about. I was so tired but had to get to the studio. Tuesday being my first day back, I didn't want to lose a day so soon. On the bus I wanted to sleep but pushed myself to draw a little. Then, in the studio, the only thing I could manage were a couple drawings. There was nothing more for painting. I barely lasted a half hour, left and met Eric for some food on my way back up the hill.

This little sketch shows me how much I need to do to get my chops back.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008





The craziness of Art Walk, election day and finishing the 30n30 had taken its toll. Yesterday was my first working studio day and it was a true pleasure.

For the first time, although I am driven, I don't feel the zany freneticism of deadlines. This new series I showed last Thursday has left me with excitement and much possibility for further exploration. And it's done so with a quiet assuredness. Yesterday's studio energy was relaxed and productive.

Toned three canvases, began two new paintings (a large and a small one) and worked a couple sketches. I'm still in love with Urban Sketchers and it's motivating me to return to more regular drawing. I feared that working the abstracts would mean a loss of my drawing hand. Currently it's weak and needs exercise. My daily photographic endeavor has dramatically slowed. For some reason my photo eye is tired and that discipline has left. So yesterday, after painting one piece, I pulled up a chair to my window, grabbed my sketchbook and quickly drew what I saw. With that, I want to commit myself to a more regular drawing practice.

Afterward I also set up a little space which is now waiting for me. It holds a drawing board and large sheets of paper. I'm looking at the idea of taking these paintings and doing them in charcoal.

There is a delicious slowness in the studio right now and I'm immersing myself in its rich flavor.

Here is one of the new paintings from yesterday. This one is 12"x24".


Tuesday, November 11, 2008





What I believe:

We will not gain equal rights with hatred. Prejudice does not fight prejudice.

We can't squash our feelings either. If there's rage, hurt, betrayal, fury...so be it. Denying that doesn't solve anything. But the trick is, how it's displayed and where. And when. Angry actions make us feel good for the moment and then once again, we are left empty and nothing is resolved.

It's human nature to seek someone to blame. "You hurt me and so I need to hurt you back." A black and white world is easier to grasp. Good/evil. Us/them. And yet, life is complicated. It is incredibly messy and never as simple as "this or that."

From my history, the unhealthy religious cultish upbringing, I carried much rage. From being rejected over and over by various communities and genders, I fantasized obliteration. And yet, I knew that all of that wouldn't effect the change I desired to see. It was and is important for me to continue fighting my own internal generalizations.

It needed to begin with me. I'm aware of the massive chips on my own shoulders - the hatred I feel inside for having been wounded.

With time, it's gotten easier and much is alleviated. It's taken many long years of hard work but I finally see my anger as a passionate fire that can morph into something positive. I'm learning to act instead of react - leash my anger instead of submitting to it. And it couldn't have happened until I was ready to immerse myself in my grief. Face my own pain.

All I can do is feel it, share it with a few trusted people, and garner my strength to work through it to achieve something greater - compassion.

Compassion. It's a word we throw around casually and it's difficult to grasp. Compassion happens in moments that feel the most impossible to be kind, to be caring. Even when we may not know how to access compassion, intention is a first step.

Compassion is a paradox because its outgoing strength lies in personal vulnerability.

I am a non-violent activist. It doesn't mean I won't lay down a boundary and allow myself to be beaten. Instead, it means that I am committed to striving for a life of compassion because I believe in the deepest part of my being that no matter how anyone attempts to hurt me, they are not going to destroy my heart, my need for authenticity and equality. My need for peace. And in that, change happens. One small painstaking step at a time.

Martin Luther King, Jr.:

"All progress is precarious, and the solution of one problem brings us face to face with another problem."

"An individual has not started living until he can rise above the narrow confines of his individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity."

"At the center of non-violence stands the principle of love."



From Gandhi:

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong."

"You must be the change you want to see in the world."



For myself, one protest I can take part in is on Saturday. Information about this national rally can be found at Jointheimpact.com.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Today was the drop off for the Forgotten Works 30 paintings in 30 days challenge. Here is a sampling...kind of in order of completion. I began more abstract and went into about 4 or 5 more realistic to then stumble upon something else.

When dropping them off at the Tashiro Kaplan building, where the show will be held in December, I was asked to be documented for the challenge. So after dropping off the work, I went back downstairs, met the camera guys, and was interviewed while being filmed. We'll see if anything comes up or I end up on the cutting room floor but even if so, it was a fun adventure.

You can click on each to make bigger.



Saturday, November 08, 2008









I had a full weekend of plans and really needed to cancel which meant no play party last night and no dinner party this evening. Although I was very much looking forward to both, it was important for me to recharge through alone time and much rest. I wasn't up for lots of people. Honestly, the fewer people, the less the noise, the better.

A little later this afternoon Matt called to see if I wanted to go on a short hike. Exercise near the water sounded like a perfect tonic and so after some quick thought, I agreed. Staying local we spent a few hours hiking in Discovery Park.

It's been an emotionally big week. I needed release of sorts. Seeing I didn't get out to get beat last night, the hike was a good way to work tension out of my body. And the water...always soothes me.

Friday, November 07, 2008





Seriously bushed today. It's been a big month. There is a play party I'd like to attend this evening and right now, I'm not sure if I'll make it.

Last night's Art Walk was wonderful. One of the highlights: an artist whose work and practice I admire not only complimented the work but asked me if I had approached any galleries about this series. I smiled and said that I'm waiting because I don't yet feel ready. I want to see if these paintings are a flash in the pan or something I will continue to expand upon. It is my intent to do so...but we'll see what evolves.

Speaking of art, in reading today's Slog I found two sites that make me happy. I love drawings. Like b&w photography, it feels like the meat and bones of 2D art. There's a stripping away and an opportunity to see beyond the glitch and shininess...see what lays underneath. It's a huge turn on for me.

Back to the sites. Begun by Seattle artist and journalist, Gabi Campanario, here is urbansketchers.com. It's a blog that showcases sketches from all over, with its contributors being artists from all over the world. Campanario also has a personal blog of Seattle drawings at GabiCampanario.blogspot.com.

Both of these are exciting and inspiring.

The image I posted is a very large (about 3x4 feet) drawing I did back in 1996. I don't do anywhere near the amount of drawing I'd like to. It happens in phases. I carry a sketchbook around, and at times it would be a daily thing. But then I drop it and it's difficult to get back into the discipline. Looking at the two sketch websites reminds me how it needs to be more a part of my practice.

I promised to write about a very special show I recently saw at the Francine Seders Gallery. I caught a little blurb for the show and immediately rearranged my schedule that day to accommodate a viewing. Walking into the gallery, and laying eyes upon the work, I teared up...so very moved. It felt familiar...a simplicity along the lines of what I'm currently exploring in my own work. The show is Soundings by Lauri Chambers. It's up at the gallery until the end of November.

You can see samples of Lauri's work here.

Thursday, November 06, 2008


I pulled these yesterday from a Turkish news site. Even though we suffered defeats with gay rights in California, Arkansas, Arizona and Florida...these photos reminded me of one reason why I'm still jubilant and in awe.

It will happen.




Extended family members of U.S. Democratic Presidential candidate Barack Obama react as election results come in, at the family's homestead in Kogelo village, Kenya, Wednesday, Nov. 5, 2008. The village is where Barack Obama's step-grandmother lives. Africans organized all-night parties to watch the U.S. election results roll in, determined to celebrate a moment in history as Barack Obama tries to become the first black American president. (AP Photo/Matt Dunham)




People carry an U.S. flag as they celebrate President-elect Senator Barack Obama's (D-IL) historic White House victory in Nairobi's Kibera slum November 5, 2008. Kenyans in Obama's ancestral homeland sang and danced with joy on Wednesday as the Illinois senator they see as one of their own became the first black U.S. president. (REUTERS/Noor Khamis)

Tuesday, November 04, 2008





Shot today from our deck at work. It's the flag across the street at the Planned Parenthood building.

A coworker passed along the following poem by Langston Hughes to the staff today. It truly expresses our feeling. And now, Barack Obama will be our new president. I'm sitting here with joyous tears.

~~~~~~~~~~~

Let America be America again.

Let it be the dream it used to be.
Let it be the pioneer on the plain
Seeking a home where he himself is free.

(America never was America to me.)

Let America be the dream the dreamers dreamed–
Let it be that great strong land of love
Where never kings connive nor tyrants scheme
That any man be crushed by one above.

(It never was America to me.)

O, let my land be a land where Liberty
Is crowned with no false patriotic wreath,
But opportunity is real, and life is free,
Equality is in the air we breathe.

(There’s never been equality for me,
Nor freedom in this “homeland of the free.”)

Say, who are you that mumbles in the dark?
And who are you that draws your veil across the stars?

I am the poor white, fooled and pushed apart,
I am the Negro bearing slavery’s scars.
I am the red man driven from the land,
I am the immigrant clutching the hope I seek–
And finding only the same old stupid plan
Of dog eat dog, of mighty crush the weak.

I am the young man, full of strength and hope,
Tangled in that ancient endless chain
Of profit, power, gain, of grab the land!
Of grab the gold! Of grab the ways of satisfying need!
Of work the men! Of take the pay!
Of owning everything for one’s own greed!

I am the farmer, bondsman to the soil.
I am the worker sold to the machine.
I am the Negro, servant to you all.
I am the people, humble, hungry, mean–
Hungry yet today despite the dream.
Beaten yet today–O, Pioneers!
I am the man who never got ahead,
The poorest worker bartered through the years.

Yet I’m the one who dreamt our basic dream
In the Old World while still a serf of kings,
Who dreamt a dream so strong, so brave, so true,
That even yet its mighty daring sings
In every brick and stone, in every furrow turned
That’s made America the land it has become.
O, I’m the man who sailed those early seas
In search of what I meant to be my home–
For I’m the one who left dark Ireland’s shore,
And Poland’s plain, and England’s grassy lea,
And torn from Black Africa’s strand I came
To build a “homeland of the free.”

The free?

Who said the free? Not me?
Surely not me? The millions on relief today?
The millions shot down when we strike?
The millions who have nothing for our pay?
For all the dreams we’ve dreamed
And all the songs we’ve sung
And all the hopes we’ve held
And all the flags we’ve hung,
The millions who have nothing for our pay–
Except the dream that’s almost dead today.

O, let America be America again–
The land that never has been yet–
And yet must be–the land where every man is free.
The land that’s mine–the poor man’s, Indian’s, Negro’s, ME–
Who made America,
Whose sweat and blood, whose faith and pain,
Whose hand at the foundry, whose plow in the rain,
Must bring back our mighty dream again.

Sure, call me any ugly name you choose–
The steel of freedom does not stain.
From those who live like leeches on the people’s lives,
We must take back our land again,
America!

O, yes,
I say it plain,
America never was America to me,
And yet I swear this oath–
America will be!

Out of the rack and ruin of our gangster death,
The rape and rot of graft, and stealth, and lies,
We, the people, must redeem
The land, the mines, the plants, the rivers.
The mountains and the endless plain–
All, all the stretch of these great green states–
And make America again!

From The Collected Poems of Langston Hughes, published by Alfred A. Knopf, Inc. Copyright © 1994

Think Blue

Monday, November 03, 2008


GO VOTE!!!!




Voting stuff.

Today, Jen Graves of The Stranger contacted a group of artists and asked them how they felt about the pending election.
Here are their responses in a little web group show.


Last week I received this in my weekly NPR music email: Sounds of Victory, Sounds of Defeat. Their list, which includes videos of the songs...

The Chamber Brothers, "Time Has Come Today"
The Ramones, "I Believe In Miracles"
Al Green, "People Get Ready"
Buzzcocks, "Harmony In My Head"

What would yours be?

Mine? If Obama wins, it would be Nina Simone's "Feeling Good".

Go vote. And if you do, you can get free stuff. Details in the links.

Free coffee at Starbucks.

Free donuts from Krispy Kreme.

Free ice cream from Ben & Jerry's.

And a free vibrator from Babeland.







Also, in The Slog, Eli Sanders has requested stories from around the world, regarding voting in this election. Scroll through this tag to get them. Some are quite moving.




A quick couple of things:

There is almost nothing more satisfying than having a plate of cupcakes plopped down next to you while at that very moment you are silently wishing for a little something sweet. It was from a coworker's partner's birthday over the weekend.

It was perfect. Not too sugary and deliciously creamy.

Another tidbit - If The World Could Vote.
It's a fun, interesting and non-scientific site created by a couple guys in Iceland. Check out the results and the FAQ tab.

The new work, shot about 3 weeks ago (sorry about the poor photo quality)~



Closeups of a few of them are found here.


I've been so bone-tired the last three or four days. The combination of the heavy internal work this month and the painting have both left me mushy. This weekend it dawned on me that between October's first Thursday and this upcoming one, I've birthed a buttload of new work, including the 30 in 30 challenge.

So it was a weekend of resting, getting together with new friends at a play party in a very sexy and groovy space, seeing the current exhibit at the Seattle Art Museum, and beginning mental prep for this work week.

I've been too tired to pick up a paintbrush which makes me sad, but the rest is needed. Today, I'm headed to the framer who has been holding a large painting and will have him ship it to my buyer in CA. Also, I need to sign 3 little ones and then, once that's dry, those will ship as well.

After this week's art walk, I look forward to immersing myself even more in the new series. I have 6 blank canvases patiently waiting for me.

Life.

Sunday, November 02, 2008





While doing dishes tonight, I was moved to shoot this. In an odd way, it reminded me of some art I saw today.

On a lovely fall day, blustery with mixes of sun and rain, Matt and I hit the Seattle Art Museum today to explore the S'abadeb—The Gifts: Pacific Coast Salish Art and Artists exhibit. It included old as well as contemporary work from current Salish artists.

Beautiful work. And it was a treat. You could tell that these objects were made with love. Baskets, woven items, carved objects, jewelry and more, all created with a sense of something greater in mind.

I fell in love with a little 19th century oil dish made of alder and glass beads. It had an animal, horse-like, carved on the front. Although I've tried I can't find an image of it.

While we were walking back up the hill, it dawned on me why I liked it. As I mentioned to Matt, it reminds me of my favorite piece in art history, this little ancient Greek geometric horse.




From the Salish exhibit, and thanks to an article in the Seattle PI, here is another little piece that charmed me - a miniature pestle, circa 1100 B.C. to 350 A.D. The article also has a few more examples, old and new.

Saturday, November 01, 2008


I'm posting this a little earlier than usual because it's going to be a busy week.

Here are some of the new paintings. These are 18"x36".




Join me for the first Thursday Art Walk.
November 6th
619 Western Ave, Seattle
4th floor south - The Sophia Room
6-9 pm